Of musings.in transition.impatient.incomplete.obscure and obdurate.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

the fabled new

I'm the girl in pink amidst the sea of black and grey. I'm thinking of dyeing my jacket an inconspicuous blue.
I like my freezing nose and the familiarity in the alien. I like the long walks and the 'look left' on the asphalt. I like the feeling of wanting to draw on warm, charcoal-y smoke each time I'm outside for very long. I like the feeling of extreme fatigue each time my head hits the pillow. I like watching the people dotting the square. I call it Lucy in the Sky with Diamonds, for some reason.
I like that I'm dealing with change even though it seems like my head doesn't know it yet.

Monday, September 17, 2007

This one's for me.

For strings
For midnight advice at old coffee haunts
For shoe purchases and watching the world pass a deserted market by
For movie-lines and their significance in popular culture
For 9am keeping with tradition
For closing distances in food
For so-sure that it's scary
For so-much..so-much
For floating time warps
For teaching calm
For taxi-ing before take-off
because clean slates never anchor.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

the me, without

For the stranger without.
The need to be with someone arises squarely from wanting to tell someone about ourselves.

Monday, September 3, 2007

Lately..

..So lately..
I have bought books I do not need. Loved looking through piles in the old bazaar. Through the sweat. Through the romance novels I cannot (I have tried, but I just cannot sift through the complications) read. Through budgeting for my much-hyped fly from the coup. Looked through swanky bookshelves - mentally ticking off the titles I've always wanted to read. And those I know I should before I'm 25. I do not want to be caught drunk saying Das Urteil, What??
Oh, and one title I totally loved was "Life..and Changing Socks"!

Filling silences in every conversation is annoying. But what when you still go back to those conversations? Why do you?

Also, this one is long overdue..
7am scrabble. 1am and 3am drunken squabble. hangovers. feet on dining tables. crimson and jam. terracota and green. balcony. dove. 4am toothbrushes. tears in 002. trying and laughing. trying and fighting. heard of. seen now. saree at sunset. italian and beef and fried chicken and chinese and appams and KPs and eggs. bread buys grocery store tantrums. entrances. imaged. TC rooms. post office-induced exasperation. goosebumps and traffic. bakery? cluedo and prickly carpets. beer and beer.