On being "positive" and "productive"

So much for my New Year's resolutions working out. (So, does one write New Year with 'n' and 'y' in caps even when not wishing people Happy New Year?)

I was never good at taking decisions. To stay in, or go out. To call. Or to give in. To step out. But what about the seemingly bigger things? - people who you need to have around. academic modules that might need you to step out of your academic comfort zone.

Where did introspection go? Or self-reliance for that matter?

I've been in this hazy time warp for the last two months. Cloudy sensibilities and intermittent waves of activity. I'm stagnating in a drugged sense of self.