Letters and Y

Y. who i adore. Of emails exchanged.

From/to she who makes sense of garbled words and more:

....Kinda numb to the world. Have lost my way. Looking for the light. Or even the tunnel. The tunnel through which i could express my feelings. Now its either lip bitting, throat lumping swallowing of emotions or outbursts from time to time...
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rationality and irrationality are relative, right?
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i think its about kicking a habit. its about filling up the spaces that are so easily and obviously filled... you'll find your mojo soon
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i am going to hold my head up... and hope that my smile makes me stronger.....
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you?!
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i feel like a stupid, bimbette, jealous, dumbfuck..
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im in this wierd time warp now. where time fuckin slips past and im left tired, but ironically with little done. time spent with you whirlpooled exactly like that.
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: ) its strange how im reading this mail '0 minutes' after you wrote it!!!...yes, I do wish I had more calm time with you...dont fixate on being fixated!!!!
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i wana dig a hole nw!!!
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love you to grain-sized pieces!!!
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i think im pms-ing or maybe im just stupid. show me the light!!
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muddle is muddle becomes clear then muddles again...
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the liberating paunch
...It had gotten comfortable somewhere in between the sunshine, and the familiarity; somewhere during the time when I started to let go...
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stop calling me auntie...i detest it as much as babe!